ON HIS DEMAND CHAPTER 48

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Have a look at the chapter, hope you guys like it...And I promise if I will be proven wrong this last time, this chapter will be the last chapter...I will completely shut down this FF! And I am very serious! 

CHAPTER 48

Arnav laid Khushi in the bed and wiped the tears from her eyes. He hated to see them. Every time she spilled one tear he cursed himself. Her smiling face when she had Adwaya in her hands was coming in front of his eyes and then later it was when she first breastfed him. She had a beautiful and precious expression on her face that clearly told him that she felt she was experiencing the motherhood. And then when Adwaya was leaving the look of defeat, pain, anxiety, loss was all on her face. And nothing he could do. Every time he thought that is it, he would keep her happy, but he was wrong and every step he took he only fell.

He leaned closed to her and continued to look at her. Caressed her hair. But what really knifed his heart her tries to keep herself strong in front of him and the family. But inside her there was a war of all sought of emotions and they all knew.

His own eyes were teary. As he looked at the side of the bed it was empty. Although, not completely. There were toys but no Adwaya to play with it. There were his clothes, his diapers, his milk bottle.

But only he wasn't there.

The pain was ineludible. Never ending. The loss was big. It felt as yet again they had just lost the most important part of their lives. Even if he was there with them for a day.

They knew that baby will be gone sooner or later, but still it had become so hard for them. A day before's afternoon brought a sunshine in their lives. And today's night brought a complete darkness.

"Arnav ji, Adwaya is sleeping please don't disturb his sleep," Khushi murmured in her sleep.

Arnav's heart scrunched and he couldn't able to stop himself from breaking down.

But was that even an any option? To just sit and cry? They had to accept the fact Adwaya was gone and once again they had to pick themselves up and be each other support. Also, they weren't alone. They had their family with them.

***
"You guys should leave as soon as possible," Mami ji said. "Khushi, needs it."

"Hmm," Nani murmured. "I agree. Khushi bitiya needs a break."

"Our bag packs are ready!" Payal said.

"We shall be joining you guys soon. We have some work pending. And when we will be done with it. We shall reach there."

"Sounds great, dad!" Akaash said.

"Mama ji, Nani, mami ji, come food is ready," Khushi said as she came out of the kitchen and almost immediately left.

"Bhai, Khushi was working in the kitchen?"

Arnav looked at him, but Payal answered, "She asked me that if she can cook the food. I allowed her."

"But why?"

"She is trying to divert her mind, Akaash."

"Oh okay!"

"But for sure we will be going to try hard and keep her happy as much as possible," Dhruv said.

"I have a plan," NK said.

"Please don't bring your GF here!" Dhruv said.

"No, first at least listen!"

"Okay, tell what?"

"If we are talking about cheering bhabi's mood, when would Gavy and Addy will be of help? We will create an environment of happiness around us. And kids can help us."

"How?" Akaash asked.
***
The following afternoon...

"Chachi," addy said.

"Yes, beta!" Khushi said.

"Chachi, mujhe washroom jane hain!" ( I have to go to the washroom.)

"Sure baby, let's go. Where is Gavy?"

"He is in his room."

"Room? Alone?"

"Yes, he is doing his H.W."

"Okay, baby, go and do pee."

"Chachi, please don't look at me."

Khushi smiled doesn't matter how sad she was. "Okay, I won't..." she said. And turned around.

"Chachi, I am done..."

"Coming baby," she said.

"Chachi, Gavy bro is not helping me in my H.W. can you help me?"

"Sure, let's go. But first of all let's wash our hands."

***
"Chachi," Gavy said and ran to Khushi as she entered the room. "Hey, Gavy. Doing H.W.?"

"Yes, chachi."

Khushi made addy stand on the bed. "Okay, shall we start the H.W.?"

"Yes, chachi."

"Chachi, shall I ask you a question?"

"Go ahead, beta!"

"Why do cows wear bells?"

Khushi started thinking. After a thinking a lot she said, "I don't know."

"Chachi, because their horns don't work," Gavy answered.

Khushi giggled.

"Okay, it's my turn," Addy said.

"Okay, go on and ask."

"Why do bees have sticky hair?"

"I don't know!" she said.

"Because they use honeycombs!"

"Shaitan's! Where do you come up with these funny questions?"

"My English teacher in London."

"Oh! So shall we do the H.W. now?"

Addy climbed at Khushi's back and kissed her cheek. "Chachi, we will play first."

"What if mommy came to know?"

"You say we are done with our H.W." Gavy added.

"Lying is not good."

"Chachi, it's okay!" Gavy said.

"Your chachu is right you guys are really naughty..."

"He would say that!" Addy said.

"Why?"

"Because when I was 4, he was sleeping in a chair and I pricked his nose hair."

Khushi couldn't help, but laugh, "didn't he say anything to you?"

"No, we said we didn't do it, but NK chachu did because he was siting beside him," Gavy said.

"And then chachu made him do push-ups."

"My naughty kids!" she said and hugged both of them. But a sudden heart ache again she felt. As she embraced both of them, she remembered Adwaya. His laugh made her smile, but his cries still echoed in her ears.

"Okay, you sit and do your H.W. Chachi will he right back."

"Okay chachi, come back soon."

Khushi immediately got up and rushed out of the room and rushed to her room.

Arnav and the family were closely seeing her and the kids but as they saw Khushi rushing out of the room every one got scared.

"I see," Arnav said and rushed after her.

Khushi got into the room and closed the door and let out a painful cry. She looked at the toys that she had kept in a bucket. She slowly walked to them.

She took a teddy bear and hugged it and tears just flowed down her eyes without her tries. Arnav was going to open the door but he stopped as he heard her cries that hurt him beyond any explanations.

***
Night fell!

Khushi had her back towards Arnav and Arnav had hugged her from behind. He was trying his best to cheer her mood but Khushi only seemed to be thinking of Adwaya. She even had a space in between of the bed. And had her hand patting the space in between imagining as Adwaya was sleeping there and she had her hand on his chest.

"Khushi, are you listening?"

"Huh...hmm!" she murmured.

But she wasn't he knew. And just like that she dozed off. It hasn't been an hour when he heard her sobs. "No, please don't...don't do anything to him."

"Khushi," he said. She immediately stopped.

He forced her to look at him. She turned. Her eyes were red and swollen.

"What happen?" he asked. Sheer fear was written on her face. "Arnav ji, Adwaya."

"Adwaya, what?"

Khushi didn't answer, but she hugged him.

"Arnav ji, I don't know if he would be fine. I had a bad dream. I don't know why I think, but Adwaya is in trouble."

"Khushi, he is with his parents. And what you saw was a dream..."

"Arnav ji, I want to see him," she said as she cried against his neck. Arnav closed his eyes taking no pain in her voice. And her sobs shook her body.

"Sshh, Khushi, he is fine. I assure you. Do you believe me? It was just your dream. If you want to meet him, we will go to his home town to meet him."

"Is that okay?"

She nodded. He made her head rest on the pillow and wiped her tears. Without any word he kissed her. Deeply, softly, passionately.

At this point he didn't want her to think about anything else, probably that was the best way he could find to divert her mind. Kiss wasn't for sure meant to be intimating but it did get. He was harsh but at the same time soft. He tangled his legs in hers. Her hair was fisted in his hand. She was out of breath, he could tell. However, only one wish he had was when she opened her eyes he could only see himself in it.

Khushi snaked her arms around her neck and deepened the kiss than it already was. Arnav's hand went under her undershirt. She shivered at his cold touch and gasped. His hands cupped her breast, pinched the hard pebbles. Deep moan left from her throat but it was muffled with the kiss.

He continued to assault her. Only for the short time he broke the kiss that was also to free her off her under shirt and her b*a. He again captured her lips, but only for a short time. He kissed her neck and bit it.

Khushi's mind was clearing. Arnav's lips on her skin was the only touch she remembered. Even she didn't know how loud her moans were. Arnav sucked on her soft skin. And today, he didn't want to stop. He missed making love to his lady, he missed making her feel special. He missed telling her not with words but with the art of his lips, his hands that he devour her as a god. He loves her and all her pain were his. Only his.

He sucked on her n*pples.

"Aaah...Arnav..." she moaned and lost in touch she was hardly able to complete her sentences.

He did promise himself it wasn't about saying but time for doing. But he did say to her, "let the love speak, Khushi. Free your mind. But keeping only me in it."

He flattered his one hand on her one breast then cupped it, and moulded it and pinched it. Everything he could possibly do and on the other he feasted on.

He loved the smell of her natural body. Sweet, but toxic to his senses. That made him only crave for and only more. Most importantly, his love was enjoying. And never did he worried about himself but her.

He went up and bit on her earlobes, and his hands were at place that he was the only one eligible to touch. He was proud of that fact.

Khushi thought to close her legs, but she didn't close them. His fingers were magical. His lips on her skin was a sweet torture. Surely too much for her to take. And when he knew she needed release he gave her what she needed.

She moaned and only sang his name. She was surprised how did he really manage to be soft and tender. But brutal in only passionate way that made her breath hitch in her throat until the last release.

Her face was glowing under the moonlight that shone in the room. She arched her back and dug her head further in the pillow and clenched the sheets as pleasures hit her.

***
"Sleep, you need it!" he murmured in her ears. And she closed her eyes. He kissed her forehead and laid beside her.

Knowing that she was sleeping, he too could take a breath of relief.

"Good night, Khushi!"

"Good night," she murmured back and hugged him tightly. He was the only person she always needed to be her side. Even then when he hated her more than he loved her.

Just before sleeping, she opened her eyes and looked at Arnav. Usually, she would be the one to sleep first but this time he was the one. She slightly got up to give a peck on his forehead.

"Thank you for being on my side always, Arnav ji!" she said and once again hugged him tightly.

She remembered addy telling her that how they pulled hair of his nose. A thought of doing that now did come into her mind, but he was sleeping and more than anything he needed it...Just in her tensions he forgets about himself. About his health. She had to take him to the doctor too. To make sure he was doing fine. She was still too scared to look at his chest. And to touch it.

It has been only a month or so but it still it felt it was only a day or two days ago thing. She was afraid now to recall all those times and Arnav's condition and loss of her baby made her heart burnt. She only dug further into Arnav. And when she looked at Arnav she shoved all the thoughts, not away but threw literally out of her mind.

***
In the early morning around 7:00 AM, she hadn't slept for more than 5 hours and there wouldn't have been 6-7 hour gap when she had another dream.

Arnav was up but had left for a jogging. Knowing that Khushi was peacefully sleeping. But until now...

All she could hear was Adwaya's cries. She is looking for him here and there and every place and nook but she couldn't find him. However, she knew the sounds of the cries were of him. On the other hand, she continued to wish it was only her dream.

She was lost, where she heard the cries she went there, but found nothing.

Then she found Adwaya on the floor, dressed in the same blue jean tunic he left the home. He was all alone not assisted by anyone. She could see his face, all red. Due to crying.

Something weird out of proportion happened she saw a bag full of grains was going to fell on him from top.

"No," she screamed. She struggled both in dream and reality. She ran fast and on time she picked Adwaya from the floor.

She was kissing him just the way she was when he was taken from her by his parents.

Now once again the same scene but in a different place was happening. Someone came and literally snatched Adwaya from her hands.

She was left screaming for help and calling Adwaya's name.

She woke up so suddenly from her sleep that her head revolved. Her breathing was laboured. She was sweating. As she found out it was just a dream she was relaxed but more than that scared. She wanted to see Adwaya. His parents said they will be going to Kolkata and Arnav did say he will take her to him.

She had just made her mind that she will ask Arnav to take her to Adwaya, when Arnav was back.

"Arnav ji," she said. "I want to talk to you."

Arnav had a big smile on his face as he looked at her. "Calm down my sweet lady!" he mused and came forward. He held her by her arms and kissed her forehead. "First tell me how are you? And did you sleep properly?"

"Arnav ji, I am fine. But Arnav ji, I have to talk to you about..."

"Khushi, can you please make aloo parantha for me. I really feel like eating it."

"Arnav ji, I will, but please listen to me. Please. Arnav ji, can we go to see Adwaya?"

"Khushi, I think we should really not he thinking about him, anymore! He is with his parents and fine..."

"But I don't know why, but I am feeling the anxiety."

Arnav was angry, but more than that the anger was due to the way she had obsessed herself over Adwaya.

"Khushi, just stop it. This is my last plea to you. Do you get that last plea. Agree with the fact he is gone. And fine with his parents."

Khushi looked at him in his eyes, anger and hurt was both in them.

"Have you seen yourself? Khushi, he can't be yours, neither mine. He can't be ours. He is gone. Forget about him. And stop hurting yourself."

He finished of his sentence more  angrily than he thought of.

Khushi stood only numb. And then she shivered when she heard the door of the washroom closed with anger.

The last thing she knew she had hurt Arnav once again unintentionally.

She was going to go after Arnav when NK came as he stood out of he room. "Nanav bhai you forgot your phone downstairs."

Khushi opened the door and took the phone from NK. He said good morning to her and she thanked god he was in a hurry and soon after giving her the phone left he left. Otherwise, she wouldn't have any answers to the emotions that was written on her face...

Arnav came out of the washroom taking a quick shower and Khushi waited for him.

"Arnav ji, I am sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you."

"Khushi, first you hurt yourself and that hurts me more than anything. More than any pain. First get that fact in your head than we shall talk about it."

"Arnav ji, only once I want to see him."

Arnav gave her one cold glare and left from there.

***
"Khushi, it's my friends birthday. So, me and Akaash were going to get a gift for her. I was wondering if you will go with us."

"No, bhabi. I think you should go. Meanwhile, I look after work here. I have to still pack out bag pack as we will be leaving in a day or two. Even Mary is not here. She has taken a day off."

"It's okay, Khushi, I will help you."

"I think you should go bhabi."

"Okay, as you wish. I just didn't want to leave you home alone. Even mom and Nani has gone to the orphanage home. And rest have gone to the office."

"I will be fine bhabi. And I have bit of a headache."

"What happen? Do you need to see the doctor? No, bhabi. I will be fine."

"Please, don't worry, you go I will be just fine."

"Okay, we will make sure we are home in an hour."

"It's okay, take your time," she reassured.

Payal cupped her face, "Take care, Khushi."

***
Khushi, sat in the lounge area and  her dreams still made her worried. There was no one she could talk about it. Arnav was already so mad at her. He didn't even eat and left to office. She was calling at his cell number but it was putting her though voice mail.

She knew more than being angry, Arnav was worried about her.

But her guts were telling her that Adwaya wasn't safe. If he was she just wanted to meet him so that she could see him.

At one point she did think that she was going to go insane. She shouldn't be attached to Adwaya. And sadly she couldn't accept the fact he was gone.

She went to the AR office with food, but there she found out Arnav wasn't even there. He had gone to the meeting out of town.

She wasn't sure when he will return and when he would eat his food. She was scolded herself for acting like a kid and for hurting him. Here he was trying to make her happy and all she was doing was thinking about the same thing again and again.

***
"Khushi, I am sorry," Arnav said. "I was so busy in the meeting and work. I just couldn't let you know," he added.

"Are you going to sleep this early? My secretary told me you came to office, but she must have told you I was out of town."

"I am so sorry, I was so mad at you, I know I shouldn't have!" he said as he removed his coat and the tie and hung it properly in the cupboard.

"Now come on get up I have a surprise for you!"

Arnav kept on talking, but Khushi responded to not any of his talk.

"I come in a few seconds. Just have to change."

When he returned back, Khushi was still lying down he himself laid beside her. "You still aren't up!?"

Khushi's eyes were closed. "What happened, are you angry at me?" he murmured if in case she was sleeping. But he could tell she wasn't when she opened her eyes. 

"No, I wasn't sleeping," she said.

"I am sorry for my morning behaviour.  I know you must be angry with me.  But I was so worried about you the way you were obsessed about Adwaya.

He made her look at him. She didn't look fine to him. "Khushi, are you fine?"

He could tell she was crying. Tears on her cheeks were dried. 

Her body felt warm to him, he checked her forehead. She was burning down with fever and shortly after her eyes closed down as she was having hard time keeping it open.